Commitments

Ramadhan Mubarak everyone.

I just can't imagine that we are already in the month of Ramadhan. And I still think about the last Ramadhan. Ya Allah. Really times goes so fast. And yet I am still dreaming. Dreaming of how can I commit to myself and others.

Talking about commitment, I am a wife and a mother of two kids. I stays home all the time and i'm not working. Basically, everyone can call me a housewife. But I am putting myself as a house manager. :)

My hobby, my passion is alot into making something new. Doing something creative. Sewing. Designing. Baking. I always dreamed to be a fashion designer. But again, commitment. Do i really can commit into the business line meanwhile i have another big commitment to commit? Sometimes i am very sure i can commit but alot of time my motivation running low and become so lazy to do anything.

My KIDS. They are my first and foremost commitment. They are growing. They need attention from me.

My HUSBAND. He needs me to iron his clothes. To cook. To take care of the accounts. To make sure the house is in good condition. To always be there for him whenever he needed me.

MYSELF. I need to finish up my master. And of course, taking care of myself in terms of beauty, cleanliness and discipline's.

When i read other people's blogs, life. I feel so miserable. They are so much in front of me. Then i started to dream. Dream big. Then i discussed it with my husband. We argued. Yes, argued of commitments. Argued of multi tasking work. Argued of my attention later for the kids. Then, my dream become small. And fade away.

But when i think deeper. I have my own way to be special. I shouldn't follow others. They have their own specialty, they own responsibilities and their own way of taking life. As for me, i admit i can't be good without my kids, without my husband. Yes, i can still be a fashion designer. To myself and the kids! And a fashion police to my hubby. I can still be creative with my 'what-to-do-list' with my kids everyday. I can still teach and be a 'lecturer' to my kids. I can still be a good housewife in managing my house everyday. I can still sew in a way of putting few hours aside to sew Zara's and Murad's clothes.

I can be what i want to be. Its just depends on how should i put it. Talking about money, how much should i earn. Well, yes, i need more money to buy my own handbags, shoes and etc. But i guess, that will come later. Commitments comes first.

Allah have gave me alot. And I already know what to do now! Its still not to late for me to start. Wish me luck.

Ramadhan Kareem.

I really hope this Ramadhan gives me more for my next life.

Gosh! Its June!

Assalamualaikum.
Bismillahirahmanirahim.

I was busy and still busy of planning and managing my family. Busy of the two kids, teaching them whatever I can. I was busy of cleaning my house, my everyday chores. Busy of planning what to cook. Busy of my thesis. Busy of planning to meet the lecturers. And alot of things! Now, busy of dreaming my new kitchen, my new bedroom, the kid's bedroom. Busy of dreaming of how can I be a perfect housewife. And busy how can I reach jannah. Firdaus.

With all the business, I didn't realize its already June. Which I think its still April! Gosh, i am 2 months far back. Huhu. :(

June. Month's of my anniversary. Month's of his birthday. Special month's for us.

No wonder he did mentioned about giving me gift. Mentioned about we're gonna be 5 years together. Mentioned about how he appreciated we as a family. And I didn't notice its June, and we are near the anniversary date!

9th June 2007. Happy 5th Anniversary Sayang. I really hope, cinta kita sampai ke syurga.

p/s thinking what to do and how to celebrate the 5th year of togetherness. ;) any idea?

Time tengah kenal-kenal dan dating ;)

Nikah. 09 June 07

@ Candi Ratu Boko, Jogja. Dah 2 anak kami. :)

My first daughter : Zara Nadeeya Sekar Ayuningrum. She's 3 years now

My son: Murad Al Fatih Satrio Utomo. He is 1 year 2 moths now.

My happy family. I hope we all can meet again in jannah. Amin

Wow, banyak nya habok!

Assalamualaikum.

Yes, it has been nearly 1/2 year I didn't updated any post in this blog. Sedangkan banyaaaakkkk hal yang nak saya kongsikan bersama orang di luar sana. Banyak tips, banyak pengalaman dan banyak kenangan yang saya nak share. Tetapi sedih, I am super busy with my 2 kids and house chores sampai update blog pun tak terlayan. Sekarang, saya menyelepat!

Update sikit ok. Tahun lepas, 2011, bulan Jun sampai September saya busy jaga budak-budak Afghanistan (InsyaAllah saya share pengalaman jaga diaorang ok..). Lepas bulan tu, busy pulak berhari raya. Abis busy raya, busy pulak hal-hal lain. Disember, saya dekat sebulan balik bercuti ke Indonesia. So, sekarang, dah normal sikit life. Boleh lah duduk berblog.

InsyaAllah, saya akan cerita satu satu pengalaman saya.

Apa pun, hari ini tidak banyak yang nak diceritakan cuma, hari ini tidak mungkin saya lupakan sebagai seorang ibu.

Tengah hari tadi, saya tertidur di atas sofa dengan anak kedua saya. Si Zara sedang bermain di karpet sedangkan ayahnya di toilet. Tiba-tiba Zara membangunkan saya dan berkata 'Bunda, Zara mau eek'. Bunda pun berkata, 'Ke ayah saja sana. Ayah di toilet.' Awalnya dia diam duduk. Segera saya menyuruh dia ke ayahnya, dan dia pun beredar. Mengetuk pintu toilet ayah dan memberitahu ayah bahawa dia mau eek. Ayahnya malah menyuruh dia ke bunda. Tetapi tidak pula dia datang kepada saya. Akhirnya saya bangun dan  melihat Zara sudah turun dari toilet. Saya lihat dia sudah pun selesai eek. Ya Allah. Pandainyaaa anak bunda. Dia ke toilet sendiri dan eek sendiri. Subhanallah. Sekarang, Zara sudah rasmi pandai eek di toilet! Dan hari ini, mood saya kepada Zara sangat lah baik! Kami macam best friend pulak!

For sure, i will miss her dearly later. She's growing too fast. And i hope to really enjoy every moments we have together.

Love,
Bunda

Baking biscuits with Zara

Mencampurkan adunan

Bergaya je ni..

Mula membuat biskut tapi banyak Zara buat tak jadi.

Tambah chocolate chip on top. Tapi, banyaknya, makan chip tu

Tak banyak Zara buat sebab leka makan chip

Tu dia, jumpa gula. Tinggal biskut

Agak hangus tapi sedap. Hangus gara-gara mengawasi Zara di dapur, lupa yang dibakar

Me and my first biscuits i bake!

Zara makin hari makin menaikkan darah saya. Huhu. Setiap kali habis solat saya selalu berdoa agar diberi kesabaran menghadapi anak-anak. Semalam, saya bercadang baking biscuits dengan Zara to occupy her. She seems excited. Tetapi hasilnya, saya lihat Zara ini anak yang cepat bosan. Sekejap je excited. Tapi, boleh lah, pengenalan aktiviti kepada Zara.

From bunda to ayah: Miss you

Assalamualaikum mas. Sudah makan? Update bunda?

• I hardly have time to even drink water, pasti selalu lupa dan tidak berkesempatan. Di saat inilah selalu kangen sama mas yang suka bawakan dinda minum.
• I don't even have time to comb my hair. But anyway, u know i seldom comb my hair. Hehe.
• I am now know how to make trifle. :)
• Always wishing to have time for massaging.
• Jamu bunda belum habis. Nanti mas pulang pengen minum lagi. Plus, tapel. Ga ada yang napalin dinda. Huhu. Plus, pakai stagen. Biar singset lagi! :)
• Everytime bunda ke rumah mak baru bunda berkesempatan mandi shampoo rambut dan berehat. :)
• Early August i have appointment with Dr. Alin. For the data review. You will go with me ok? :)
• Last but not least, I always miss you. Me and our two kids. We'll wait for you.

p/s take care. I am planning to cut my hair tomorrow.

having my good time with adek and kecik at sushi king while Zara at nenek's hse

My dinner 

From Zara to ayah: Assalamualaikum ayah..

Ayah, ini update Zara. Khas buat ayah. Zara sekarang sudah mula mengaji, ayah.. Sudah sampai huruf shin tetapi Zara masih keliru huruf dal dan zal, huruf ha, kho dan jim.

Zara sudah pinter dengar cakap bunda. Zara bantu bunda beres dan bersih rumah. Zara habis main pasti bantu beresin.

Zara bantu jaga adik sewaktu bunda mandi.

Zara sudah mau sikat gigi.

Zara kangen sama ayah.

Ini photo Zara buat tatapan ayah.

Zara enjoying bunda's spaghetti

Mmmm....beginilah Zara makan spaghetti, ayah!

Hingga menjilat jari

Enaaakkkk...

Enak, kan? :)

Zara riding jusco's new trolley

Eh, somebody is at the back!

Reverse dulu, ah..

Zara doing my painting

Cantik kan lukisan Zara, ayah?

Zara helped bunda in the kitchen

Karipap is otw!!!

Bye, ayah.. Can't wait to see you.

Love, 

Zara Nadeeya Sekar Ayuningrum

From Satrio to ayah: How are you ayah?

Ayah, i miss u...

Update untuk tatapan ayah yang jauh di mata

Post yang kali ini dituju khas untuk suami ku yang jauh di mata tetapi selalu dekat di hati kami. :) I know u r reading this. Miss u lots.

Okay. As I told you before, we went to Daffa's 3rd birthday bash. And i only managed to snap these since i was busy eating laksa jakarta, mi goreng jawa, sate ayam and cakes.

Anak bujang ai menjelir lidah

Birthday boy tak nampak pulak, terlindung oleh Zara

After the birthday celebration, balik rumah mak and ada cousin, adik kak wen, abang ani di rumah dengan family. That was the first time i met the kids. :)

Ada kelibat Ema putting Faryal for the photography session

The Cousins

Then mak did mentioned to us that Rozain (aunt ana's eldest son) is admitted at the hospital due to muntah-muntah. So, i made the initiative to visit him since the hospital is not far from our place. By the time we get there, Rozain was having his dinner and we had chit chat for few minutes.

Dr. Rozain admitted, satrio terlentok pulak..hehe

Together visiting the doctor, Saleema and Emma

After maghrib, selepas balik dari melawat Rozain, kami berjanji dengan aunt ana for dinner di pizza hut bangsar. So, we had our dinner together with uncle din, jojo, mak, ayah, Ema and her baby, and kecik. :) Thanx jojo for the dinner.

The Opah and Nenek in d house!

The babies in d house!

Bapak-bapak yang hadir

Sama biru

Faryal "Where's my mom?"

'

Ada pun mak hang faryyal.. :)

And we finished the meal, licin...huhu...berkat rezeki jojo. Akak doakan jojo akan terus menggapai kemajuan dalam berkerjaya. Amin.

Masa terasa berlalu dengan amat lambat

Masa-masa yang saya lalui sekarang terasa amat lambat sekali. Selalunya terasa cepat. Tetapi kali ini barulah saya merasa masa berlalu lambat. Suami saya telah pergi ke luar kota (luar kota bagi saya, tapi kota dia untuk dia) hehe. Paham ke tak ni.. Dia dah balik Jakarta untuk 1 bulan bagi membantu pekerjaan bapanya sementara menunggu projek yang di sini jalan. Pokoknya, suami saya tidak ada di sisi kami bertiga.

Sepi terasa hidup biarpun hiruk pikuk rumah didatangi tetamu berkunjung pulang pergi atau hiruk pikuk Zara yang sekarang terlalu banyak bertanya. Tetap sepi. Zara juga sering bertanyakan ayahnya. Dia tahu ayahnya ke Jakarta. Katanya untuk beli coklat untuk dia.. :) Setiap kali dia melihat towel ayahnya, pasti dia bilang "Ayah punya". Pagi-pagi bangun juga nyaru ayahnya.. :) Walau bagaimanapun, kami tetap kontak lewat Skype. Teknologi tidak dipersiakan.

p/s Ayah, we miss u alot. So much. Kadang-kadang capek mengurus anak sendirian tetapi demi membentuk anak soleh dan solehah, tidak ada yang tidak capek. :) Kiss from us for u. Take care. Padahal ayah baru pergi beberapa hari (he went to Jakarta last Friday, that means sudah 5 hari berjauhan). Terasa betul kaki sebelah ku patah. Kebetulan hari ayah pergi, kaki dinda sakit sebelah kanan. :)

Adik belum ada stroller, so, dalam car seat.

Hand luggage

Sempat menikati hot chocolate di Secret Recipe sebelum check in

Mengisi perut adik sebelum keluar lagi, sampai bocor pampers!

Bye-bye ayah. Selamat pergi dan pulang ke kami lagi ya. Kami akan selalu menunggu.

Sepi